Awww yeaaah!

In 3 weeks I'm going to start in school again! I'm so excited! I'm going to take this 12 weeks course, called Turbo 12, that allows me to get start HF (Higher Preparatory Examination course) after the summer-break. The only catch is that I might not be able to keep my job. My boss was not exactly thrilled when I told her about my plans. She promised me that she would try to make some changes in my work schedule so that I'll be able to take Turbo 12. She also told me that she wouldn't promise that she could make it work. That my only option to take this course would be to quit. Which I most certainly will, if it comes to that. My priorities are clear. And I choose education way over work. But it would be nice to have a job and.. Y'know.. Keep the money coming? If I'm moving out just after I turn 18 (A month or so tops) I'm going to live off my savings from the past few months for about two months. Which is very doable, of course, but it really would be nice if only I could keep them money comin' xD

Todays song is for a girl named Cecilie, and people like her. - Real assholes. The song is Stronger Than You  by Paola E. Chiara.

And the nu,ber of the day is 252. Have been seeing that number quite a lot today ^^

Over and out
-Brian

Raging out!

I am furious! I am frustrated! And I am restless! I just want to get away! I want to leave. I do not want to be here anymore! I long for the day I can move away from home. 6 months seems like a very fucking long time, and I am incredible impatient. I am sick of living with my family. I am sick of listening to my sister when she says how tired she is of me. I am sick of my mother always looking over my shoulder, telling me what to do and when to do it. And I am sick of people telling me that I am not old enough. Fuck you! Fucking fuck you! I want to scream my anger out, but suppresses it into silent tears instead. Wouldn't wanna wake up anyone, now would we? Sometimes I think I'm to kind for my own good. Why does everyone else always have to come before me? Why can't I for once be the most important thing? I know I'm not being fair right now. I know I'm being a selfish bitch right now. But you know what? I don't fucking care!
If I wanna be a selfish bitch, then let me! I always thinks far too much 'bout how everyone else feels and what they think of me. So please, let me be furious, let me be selfish, let me take care of myself! FUCKING FUCK! SHIT! FUCKING ANT PEE! AAARGH! Gosh, I wish I could scream right now. Just scream. Scream all the anger out. Just get rid of it. It's been quite some time since bleeding was this attractive. I know the peace it would give me. I know shallow feeling of false happiness that would fill my entire body. I know the silence that would come upon my mind. The calmness that would let me relax, let me sleep. But also I know that I won't do it. I want to think of myself as strong but how can I do that, if I fall for the temptation. I am stronger than that. I won't go down that path again. It's a circle of selfdestruction, and I won't get caught in it again. Not now, when I'm finally out of it. I'm starting to relax a bit again. I knew it was right of me to start blogging instead of anything else. I just had to get all that anger out somehow, and this seemed to be the best way.

Todays song is Smile by Lilly Allen
And todays number is 18.

Over and out
- Brian

Rammstein!!!

You all know Till, Richard, Paul, Ollie, Christoph and Christrian, right? Well, I've touched 'em! XD (Completely fan-girl-mode) I was at the concert in Herning yesterday and it was FAWKING AMAZING! I especially like the sceen show for Engel. Till had some giant wings with flamethrowers on the tips. All in all there was a very fucking lot of fire. Me liiiike :D Oh and the warm up band was pretty damn decent as well. The Deathstars. Oh what an original name -.-' But they're okay. If you like metal and screaming and growling check them out. Give them a change. ^^
Right now I'm chillin' with two of my friends back from Copenhagen. One of them, Marcus, is going home in an hour or so. Got some homework to do 'n stuff. The other one, Line, however is not allowed to go home 'till Saturday. I'm keeping her here untill that. XD
Haven't seen her in quite some time.
Todays number is 302. I have no idea why. It's just been stuck in my head all day.
And the song of the day iiiiiis.... Keine lust by Rammstein.

Over and out for now
- Brian

Troll much?

My body is trollin' me.. When I'm actually sick, and needs medication it's like "Oh, oh! Let's be all me quite and don't move, then maybe she won't notice there's anything wrong!" And then, when I'm healthy and all it goes like this: "Oh. My. Gosh. There's nothing wrong with me at all??! Quick! Let's hurt like hell somewhere, with no apparent reason!" So yeah... Right now I'm sick.. My throat should hurt every time I try to sink and I should barely be able to speak. But my throat is fine, and there's noting wrong with my voice. I have laryngitis and the only reason why I know this is because I suffer from a special form of psoriasis that erupts when I have streptococci in my systym (Streptococci is a bacteria that causes laryngitis). And since I need to go to the doctor (A specialist) to get some light treatment everytime my psoriasis erupts, so he usually checks my throat for strepococci when I'm there.

Todays song is Here To Stay by Korn
And ze numberr of ze day isssssssh 666. Because quite a fucking few customers spend that amount of money today.

Over and out for now, fellow internet-users :D (I am such a fucking goood mood today xD)
- Brian :D