Ponytails, sunscreen and lemon-bracelets

So, today I've had my first ponytail in just about a year. Finally my hair is getting longer again! :D But really, I quite like to be able to put my hair up like that again. One can play a bit more with a couple of different looks, when ones hair can be put in a ponytail or alike.
Aand I've just bought the first bottle of sunscreen this year! :D Today is quite sunny, and I love it, I just can't be outside of the house without sunscreen. Or I will burn. Like a vampire. So, one bottle of sunscreen spf 50? Check! I am soooo ready for summer! I love summer! I've always liked the clothes you can wear at summer way better than winterclothes. It's just... So... Lovely! I love it.
I alos bought some rubber bracelets today. They smell like lemon. It's awesome XD
They're meant to keep mosquitoes away, but I'm not sure if it really works. I just thought they were pretty. And they smell nice. xD
I've been listening quite a lot the song Scars by Papa Roach, and there's one special phrase that I cling to;
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real...

I think this fits quite well to how I am, and how I felt not so long ago. I care a very fucking lot. About everyone. Not only the ones close to me. Everyone. Sometimes I'm so busy caring about others that I forget to care about myself. And I am scared. Oh my, I am scared. I have plenty of scars to remind me just how real my unpleasant past have been. But I need to remember is that it was just as cheerful and happy as it was awful and tragic. It was a little bit of both worlds. Which I actually thinks is quite healthy.

Todays song is Do you know what I am Seeing? by Panic! at the Disco. 

And the number of the day most be 0. Because it looks like the shape of the sun. And it's beena sunny day... Whatever xD

Over and out

- Brian

Random derping on your screen.

You know that cookbook I talked about last time? The veggie one? I absolutely love it. I mean, it's not the most easy recipes, but they are so very delicious. Sure it's challenging to get those dishes right, but when one get to taste the reward of all that effort... I simply do not have the words to describe it. I mean, when I get it right, it tastes like something from a fancy restaurant, but it isn't! I've been struggling in the kitchen to make it just perfect. And I must say, the satisfaction is great.
School is boring. Like not just boring, as it was in high school, but really boring. We've just had presentations of some of our work in both English and Danish. In English I got a straight A. Not that I did anything, at all, to earn it. I didn't prepare anything, I didn't practice. I just went up there and talked. Apparently that was enough. In Danish we had to work in groups, so I kinda had to prepare a little more than for English. Still, we got a B. And we didn't really do much. Hadn't prepared anything very well. Just threw a couple of pictures in a powerpoint and started talking. That's it.
Actually I find it slightly annoying, that it is so boring. I would really love to be challenged a bit more by the teachers. But they do, of course, have to take of the 'more challenged' part of the class. Or the less smart. I sound like a geek that's in love with myself, don't I? xD
Apropos love... I don't know what's about it. Maybe I have commitment issues? Maybe I feel caged? Caught on far to little space like a lion in zoo? Or maybe I just simply get bored of being with one person all the time? I don't know, I really don't know. I wish I did, tho. I wish I could say "I don't want a relationship because...."
But I can't I have to stop the sentence at "I don't want a relationship." I actually like being single.  It's not like I'm not afraid of hurting someone when I'm single. Just less, than when I have a boy- or girlfriend. When single I don't have to constantly think about what someone else would think if I kiss this person. What if I kiss this person, will that count as cheating? I like kissing. I just do, I can't help it. Especially when I get drunk. When I get drunk I kinda lose control. Becomes quite a slut, according to my friends. Maybe that's just that I am; A slut. But at least I'm an awesome one. At least that's what I think. Whatever.
I'm tired. It's getting late. I'm hyper. I really shouldn't drink soda just before bedtime. Especially not Mt. Dew. I miss someone to write to in the middle of the night. Someone who'll stay up with me, even though  we both have to go to school the next day. Someone to text untill one of us falls asleep. I like that. I guess I feel safe when I know someone's willing to just talk to me 'till (s)he falls asleep. Or 'till I do. I don't know. I should go get some rest. Gotta work tomorrow at 9 am. It's close to 11 pm right now. Luckily I don't have to think all to much at work xD
Todays song is Pretty Odd by Panic! At the Disco. Because it's been stuck in my head since yesterday. And now Zombie by Cranberries just got stuck in there too. Good luck falling asleep .-.
Aand the number of the day is 285. Because it's just been everywhere today.

Over and out. And sleep tight
 - Brian

Uh! That's yummy!

Soo.. Long time no see? Sorry 'bout that.
But! Today I bought this new cookbook. (Yay, new stuff! :D) And it is amaziiiing! The english version is called Veggie food, and it is (surprise, surprise) a vegetarian book. I must say I simply love it!
Today I made this truly delicious rice otto with green asparagus and pistachionuts. Yum!
So but a very fucking lot of stuff have been happening lately. I've started in school, which is great. I am the absolutely youngest in my class, but I don't care. 'Cause I'm one of the smartest students as well. Actually it's rather boring. I know most of what we are taught. And that little which I don't already know, I learn rather quickly.
I still have a job! (Yay me!) There've been some times where I've been afraid that I'd loose it, but I haven't yet.
So I've gotten myself a girlfriend. And I love her. She's just so sweet. We've been together for a litlle more than a month now. And I'm going to break up with her. 'Cause I'm a jerk. A busy jerk. Who just can't manage to be in school, and to work while being in a relationship. I suck.

Actually, no I don't. I'm okay. But Elizabeth isn't. She's having a hard time. She really needs some professional help, but she doesn't want it. She depends a lot on me to comfort her, and take care of her problems. I can't do that. And then it's okay to say no. Say ask her to stop. So now It's stopped. Yeah that's right, I actually broke up with her before I finished this. I feel like such a douche.

Todays song is Stupid Girls by Pink.
And the number of the day is 8. Because today have been a good day, even though I just dumped my girlfriend.

Over and out
- Brian