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Wau.. I mean just... Wau.
I am furious! I feel so, so betrayed!
My sister is a theif. Don't know if I've mentioned it before, but she is. She steals clothes from us. My mother and I. It's unbelievable! I really hate to say this, but I don't think I can trust her at all anymore. And it kills me! Because I love her so very much, and I want to trust her! But I can't.
Sometimes I really want to hit her. Just beat her up so badly not even our mother would be able to recognize her. Really just watch her bleed. I feel like a terrible person just for thinking this, but it is a part of the anger, the rage, she awakens in me. And at the same time I just feel heartbroken! What on Earth was she thinking, betraying my trust like that?! She might as well spit me in the face.
Now, this is far from the first time she have done something like this (Otherwise I might be overreacting a tad). She has done this several times before, walking into my room when I'm not there, taking my stuff and calling it hers. I hate it. It makes me feel so small, so helpless. She has been told that it's wrong, and not allowed several times before, but that doesn't stop her. What if she continues this behavior when she's all grown up? What if she continues out of the house? She might go to jail then. I would hate to watch my babysister go to prison. But that might be a reality in just a couple of years. If she keeps this up. It's awful.

Todays song is Evil Angel by Breaking Benjamin.
And the number is 13.

Ovre and out
- Brian

Random crazy-thinking

You all know those adds on the web, where you can sorta order a russian or muslim or whatever wife, right? Wouldn't it just be cool if they where made with husbands too? So instead of buying a neat little wife, with giant tits, you could purchase a handsome young man with strong abs, a pretty smile and an adorable face... I would rather like that... My order-husband should have red hair... I think I kinda have a thing for red hair... It's so absolutely beautiful... I would like my future kids to have red hair... I think I would rather like such a order-husband-website. Or actually I would not. I would hate it. As much as I like to look at pretty people the looks couldn't be less important when I look for a boy-/girlfriend. It is all about the person behind the masks. Some people don't believe me when I say that. I don't care. I know it's true. Being pan-sexual kinda does that to you... XD
Right now ma kitteh is walking all over my lap. She is sorta an attention-whore xD My right leg is sleeping, and she has just decided to go to sleep right there. And since she is the queen of this family there is nothing I can do about it... I really reeeeeeeaaally love her. When at some point I get tired of rats I think I would like to buy my own lil kitteh when I've moved out.
Henrik and my mother are talking about moving to Silkeborg sometime this winter. My mother already works there, and my sister might be starting in a school there. And Henrik might just get a job there as well. So they'll move to Silkeborg and I'll move to Herning. it's kinda a strange thought.
I might get a job in Copenhagen for the summer! Yay! :D
Then I'll be staying at ma grandma and grandpa's. They live in a small apartment in inner Copenhagen, but they said that if I could get a job there, I could come live with them. They're great. My family is great! :D Very crazy, but absolutely amazing!

Boys however are very complicated. Some of my old friends are starting to treat me as if I reeeeaaally wanted to be their girlfriend, and they're just thinking about letting me. Which is SO not the case! I have not been speaking to these boys for years and have no wish what so ever to be the girlfriend of ANY of them! UGH!
But I might be having a little crush on two different guys  :3 Who they are will be my little secret for now xD
But it's kinda nice to have a crush like that. It's probably not something I will react on, it's just nice to get this ticklish feeling whenever I look at them :3
I actually really wouldn't like to have boyfriend right now. (Or a girlfriend for that matter) I feel like I'm good as it is, and that's fine. However I wouldn't mind to have a cuddle-buddy at night ;P
Oh well, I think that's about enough gut-spilling for one night.

Todays song is Ballad of Serenity by Sonny Rhodes. Because I've been rewatching some o' ma favorite episodes of Firefly <3 LOOOOOOOVEEEEE!!!! :D
The number of the day is 383. Because that's just how it is. Deal with it. xD

Weeelll, Gnight folks :D
- Brian