Marf marf marf...

In the moment I'm kinda in a bad mood. A lot of things is going on right now. Mostly I just want to go away, to escape from being me. And yet, I'm thinking a lot about the way I look at my past. If I looked at it differently, then would I be more happy? Or would it just be the same? I'm actually trying to look at it in another way, but it's hard. Let me give you an exampled: My father died back when I was little. Mostly I see this as a bad thing. I hate my father for leaving me like that, and I'm ashamed because I've never had a father to do all the father-daughter stuff with.On the other I could thank my father for making that much stronger, and respect his decision. I would rather like to be able to at stuff like that with a positive mind, but I'm just not. I'm too busy feeling sorry for myself. Marf... Yet another emo-ish post... You should probably expect quite a few of those, since I'll most likely put a post in there when ever something 'big' happens, and I am having some problems atm. Not that it takes over in my everyday-life, but sometimes it just gets all to much.

Todays song is Evil Angel by Breaking Benjamin. I heard it the first time this Monday, and I really like. It's a great song. You should try and hear it some time.

Over and out

- Brian